Nothing

In a small room

all dark, all dark.

In some centre

I sit

shackled

convicted...

God asks me

What did you do?

I say-

Nothing.

Walk in the park

Walking in the park

Thinking stiff

Searching my soul mate

My love to live. 

I look shyly

At couples

All so engrossed

I felt lifeless. 

A small voice then muttered

What’s the point living?

There’s nobody for me

Nobody caring.

Lost in the maze

I tripped off a stone

A hand just then

Reached for my support.

Oh!  That’s the guy I always fancied

Charming as if a fairy tale prince

My heart pounds faster

And I wish he doesn’t listen.

I knew, I knew

My name was christened to him

He is my man

For him I have been living. 

Embracingly in his arms

His gaze so wise

I felt myself

Dissolving in his eyes. 

Moments later, he asked me if I was fine

I wished to say no

But if he was with me

I could say so. 

Breaking the ice we chatted animatedly

All the while

Happiness could kill me

Or I could go senile. 

What he said

Touched my heart

Told me that he always

Wanted to start. 

His inhibitions had held him

So had mine

I said it took so long

When everything could be fine. 

Yes, we are so fearful

Of the word reject

That we often forget

It’s even worse to regret.

Why we leave things?

For destiny to sort

Realizing at last

That we lost the war which we never fought.  

I wish I could

Go back and do

The things which I

Must have opted to… 

But now is the time

It’s never too late to start

Just rebegin things

And walk in the park… 

ps: This comes from my teenage diary. Yes, I had 'mills and boons' fancies. :D